My Princess Diary

Hi my dearie friends… Im not going to blog here anymore… Haven been writing very long here because im building my new blog… But i got write on my new blog…

I wun be annoucing my new blog add here, coz i wanna limit the people who knows it.. its more of like a "place" i disccuss my problem with my frd? ya… still building it to become beta… Its very pretty! Do come visit and leave me a note… but alot of things not up yet so still not very much facilities… Hang on ok… haha

U can sms me? msg me in frdster? comment board? whateva ways

Wanna thank Aces WYD who has been helpin me from sketch… I know im very blur at HTML but he’s very patience wit me… thank god :p Now the creation of mine is almost done! i cant wait for u guys to visit! hehe…

So this is my last blog here… Bye~~

Previously I was saying I was not happy jus the day before my bday rite? Ya… Its because I cut off ties with this frd I had for very long…

Although it has been very long, as in the amt of years we know each other, the quality time is not as much, and I oso feel the understanding for each other’s expects is not much or even unknown.

There’s a lot of things she’s not happy abt me now, well… so am I here, but I believe she has her own reasons n I have mine too to be unhappy abt… I gave her my explanations but to her is excuses n rubbish. Using her chilli words to block off any ways of reconciliations…

Of coz I felt very bad tat day itself coz I din wish things to end like tat, but its me who prompted to cut the ties coz, its actually quite torturing for me. Asking me to quarrel, cold war or saying things back endlessly is not my nature.

Bugging for present

Ya, she said I bugged her so much for present, she said she felt that my bday present is more impt den her presence. I din really BUGGED her! She regarded as my close frd (At that moment), its like more of disturbing her den to really bugged her, I mean… I dun do this to everyone, only those I’m super close with den I’ll super thick skin to joke with them… “Eh my bday coming!! Where’s my present??” its like, hmm… saying to this frd who always cant make it for a gathering “Wow lao, every time say wana come, in the end oso nv! How many times liao huh? Not pai sae ar?” tat kind of comments… Although I repeated 3times, to me is still consider joking n disturbing… but to her is bugging la.

Planning for a boring Tuesday

It’s a super boring Tuesday nite, n tat was the only nite I can be out, I dunno where to go but jus wanna have a nite out… knowing Glen might not be able to enter dragonfly, I din wanna go attempt it first probably until when I met up with my uncle first… So I called Olivia to go along, I din really ask much ppl to go only my dancing Khakis coz I know I wanna dance tat nite, n my bro Robbie… And of coz Amelia.

Olivia invited me to where her boyfrd was working, saying drinks will be much cheaper here n she dunno wat time den she can join us at where ever we are coz she has to wait until there closes first, so y not we come over first until here close abt 1am den we all change place together. At that moment when everything is so not certain I really dunno where to go, no one gave me any suggestions at all! So I decided jus drop by to wait for Olivia until her side is done. I made a tough choice coz the venue is at Joo Chiat, u know… where all the Vietnam hookers are, I was so afraid to be tot as one, hahaha… but I really dunno where else to go first. Anyway its still acceptable for me la, coz I know I’m not wat they think is enuff.

Into the Joo Chiat Pub

When me n Robbie arrived, we got our jaws drop to the kind of music… its Chinese techno canto style. Its quite turn off but because of Olivia, n this is not our last stop we still hang in there.

Till Glen comes that where our dancing starts, Glen, Olivia and me… We’re all dancer before! Glen is my regular clubbing khakis last time, Olivia loves dancing too… when 3 of us dance, it really did brought me back some sweet happy memos like how we “conquer” MS those days… wahahaha

I think it’s the lady boss ba, she said “den 3 of ur go up to the podium to dance together la, u can choose RnB, but only 3songs…” At first it was a lot of “No la” “Dunwan la” “Pai Sae la’ but in the end we still agreed, coz it has been hell years we dance together in a small podium like the one in Rush years ago, n I dun always get to see them so ya… y not? Even though the crowd my cup of tea, but we cares when ur focus is not on them.

Leaving Her Alone When I dance

So this is when the Angry Amelia steps in… we waited for our song quite long, n jus so Suai ar, when Amelia jus reach the DJ said “next will be ur turn le ar…” so I told her “aft next song im going up to dance with glen n Olivia but its only for 3songs”

Aft the 3 songs I came down, I saw her super long n black face, I expect her to wait for me den she said “I’m going off now…” So pissed, n it can be seen on my face so I said “ok lor” N she left… I din run out to get her back like those drama series because I feel tat since u know y u wanna leave den leave ba, stop u will make things beta? N seriously I din feel I neglected her! Count ourselves Suai for the timing of our 3songs to come.

She cant understand that we’ve ardy promise n book the slots? She cant understand its jus 3songs? Of coz aft the song we can still chat, but since she wans to act harshly into her decision of leaving den eat the fruit of the outcome. Once she reach she asked for the toliet, aft she come out I’m dancing, aft I dance she wans to leave. So drama. She din gave me a chance to “entertain” her… its so not fair.

Aft she leave, I was thinking, its not so good to just let her off, I mean no matter wat she’s someone who made me smile before, n I truly appreciate, messaged her, she gave harsh replies n sickening my hp key pad so difficult to press coz my hp was sent to service n I’m using the old one. Therefore I called her coz its more sincere n I think saying out my reason to her unhappiness is the best den to keep sms plus my f***king hp is so problematic…

BEST!

The best part, I called, she hung… I called, she hung, and I called again, she hung again. Normally I only call 3times, regardless to whom ever la. It straight away made me tot of that idiotic act of Robin yong, coz he oso like to hang ppl calls as an act of avoiding. I dunno wats the reason y she keep wana hang but it did really pisses me off, as I wana settle it once n for all when she gave me such behaviour to the frdship… I’m not her Boyfriend k. I dun feel tat I should experience this at all that day itself. I mean, shouldn’t sisters be more understanding that Bfs? Of else y guys have brothers to tok to when they r down n gals have sister to talk to when they have troubles?

So I sent a msg to tell her since she likes hanging so much, there no need to call or reply anymore… when I said that I really mean it, coz thoughts of her treating me unfairly jus keep popping up, from childhood till now la. She might not know exactly how I feel towards her, how I’ve seen some of her selfishness n self-centred, the feeling was so strong n determine not to carry on this frdship. The bugging of present issue ardy somehow made me very upset, coz tat show how she look at me, wat she said is not wat I think I am… moreover now? Another insult of me frm her very mouth. I feel that so long me being her frd, I’ve always keep the responsibilities of being a true frd, it may not be as perfect as real blood sisters but I really put in my genuine heart, so since I’ve done my best, there’s nothing for me to regret for not doing good.

She jus cant always wan me to understand how easily she’s sensitive to words or me always wanting her to let me win, this kinda stuff? Being a frd or even best sister must have their own bonding n understanding, I dun think we have it now, last time I can still say a little..

Previously I was still blaming myself for not being nice enuff to her so probably this will happen, but thinking thru it, where else can I change? She come in I should had announce “Hey everyone! My frd jus arrive! I cant dance ardy! I must accompany her!” (Despite I ardy promise my frds) or (*run up to her*) “No… No… dun go, dun leave me!” or (*Pull her up to the podium to dance with me when I know she not the dancing kind?*) I really dunno lor. Dunno wat action to do den this fight wun happen but tat was ardy the past.

Wat kind of person r u, u’ll find it easier to cope with ur same species… probably over these years we’re so so much different ardy. But the happy moments r still wat I will keep, all the pics we took from young till recents r the best to keep. I really dun see a reason to continue, always she come n go in my life. I’m somehow tired abt it. I really regretted chatting to her on msn n accepting her frd request on frdster again this year mid Jan. I mean , I purposely lost contact with her for a reason n y is my stand not firm enuff? Maybe because I’m really seeking for a close gal friend to acc me thru out my life.. Anyway, I really dunno years lata will we reconcile but from now I dun see anyone will step back.

Forgetting her Birthday

I din forget her Birthday at all… 18^th Jan I know its her Bday. I wanna send a msg this year coz we stopped contacting for quite long n I thought tat was the rite time to jus say a “hi” but I forgot… I delete her number!!! Hashanah… so I din get to contact her, if she remember, we only contact back each other AFTER the her bday, so am I still suppose to say “Happy belated? Aft so long? Bo liao lor.

In The End

I thought giving up this frdship will be a trauma for me again but this time round, I dun feel much hurt, I guess she had train me well for this… Coz she kept comin n goin in my life, and of coz God plays a big part asking me to forgive all wateva she said that had hurt me. I’m healed, otherwise I wun be writing this so nicely… hahaha

Really dunno is Pan dang or wat la, but I always find tat whenever I say “Me n whoever is whateva forever” it will always come to an end very fast lor! Like example, when I say me n my bf will be in love forever on love Getty or stickers or photo, it will gradually come to an end. Jus recent she posted a pic tat say “10 or 100 yrs fm now we’ll still be together” n I posted mine saying “we meant the phares forever frds” n now, its all gone…

I always say… nothing is forever, only god’s love. Until today, I only see god’s love is constant, I still dunno wat else is forever… everything nice will come to an end.. is my life very pessimistic? Well… im still learning k… But aft this incident it reconfirm wat I always say “nothing is forever, good things will come to an end”

It was a pity, really its not because our frdship is brittle but I guess its our strongholds… I wun curse n swear abt her but I hope she can have a good life ahead…

A Song to Share

Here’s one of my Favourite song I wanna share, its abt life to me… somehow this incident is quite compatible to the song now I guess.. Hehe I’m so happy when this song is out, its jus so wat I feel… not only to frdship, to some old sweet relations oso, everything will come to an end, old loving couple, one of them will die one day… leaving another behind, all alone so lonely… -_-

All the good things (come to an end)

Dogs were whistling a new tune
Barking at the new moon
Hoping it would come soon so that they could die

And the sun was wondering if it should stay away for a day until the feeling went away
And the clouds were dropping and the…
The rain forgot how to bring salvation
The dogs were whistling a new tune barking at the new moon
Hoping it would come soon so that they could die

http://angelinefemininity.imeem.com/music/IarHWYqO/all_good_things_come_to_an_end/

Happy birthday to myself…Next year in the "2s" ardy! Sobz~~ When i was young, always wanna faster grow up, now how i wish all my life jus remain 18-22! hehe…

Anyway… I enjoyed my birthday alot, but the day before my Bday i wasn’t really happy. So i should say happy ones 1st! haha…

Celebrating with my Parents

Daddy n mummy brought me to Swensens for a treat, it was a simple dinner… Daddy said "Jack’s Place or Swensens?" "SWENSENS!!! i wanna eat ice cream" i exclaim… I bought my jewels along too… Hubby din went along coz he said he need to prepare something…

Though its only a simple dinner, im filled with contentment, coz i dun always get my parents to hav dinner together so i cherish every moment…

I jus wanna thank God, coz I’ve been praying for them since 12. True, there r times i really dun feel like praying blessings upon them but, God is faithful, He know wat i need n want… I dunno in which way he change the circumstance, whether be it all the changes is by me, or He change my point of view or even fill my family imperfectness with His… God is jus so good

Everyone has their own problems in their own family u know? So I’m thankful mine doesn’t have serious problem No problem is too big

Daddy gave me an ang pao, Mummy gave me a BOOK! yes, a BOOK for ME, can u see their different character? hehe, dad will always give me wat i wan, all his best. Mummy will gave wat she thinks i should. But u know wat? Tat Book is the book I’ve been looking for! Its a very powerful book, "The Power Of A Praying Parent" –Stormie Omartian… Thank god it came at a right time, so i dun hav to buy!

After the dinner, I’m suppose to go Cell Group. I’m so excited! Going cell is beta den meeting any frds or even going shopping, lata u ‘ll know y hehe.. :p So dad sent mum home n sent jewels back for hubby to takeover so i cud go cell..

Half way on the journey, he’s cellphone rang, its his stuff… She said "Eh, u strike 4D again leh!" (*evilsmiles*) hehehehe… wat does it mean? I oso should have alittle ma, haha… This year is really my dad’s year man! I hope he can be more healthy n wealthy Nevertheless, i told him dun buy too much, coz… my dad is not a believer yet, n i dun really encourage 4D betting, as im worried it will cause addictions. He said "No la, only buy small small, buy big wun strike… " tats good…

Reach Theresa’s Place

Upon reaching, i was thinking it has been so long, n i think Theresa n my Dad din see each other before, Yeah… It should be a right time. When they met, normal… All the "hi", greetings, blessings… Den my dad said "Thank u for helping me guiding n caring for her all this times" His Appreciation is so real even though he’s laughing when he’s saying it… "Thanks so much" I’m so touched at that moment, knowing tat I’ve been so much in his love

My Cell mates

Into Theresa’s place, she said "Happy Birthday, u enjoyed ur dinner? U’re so blessed (*Huggies*)" So filled with love! Den we did wat we normally do in cell… Sharing, chatting, followups, singing praises, learning… N after the "lesson" is over, it time for…. SINGING MY BDAY SONG! Haha…

"To All The Ladies in the House~~" Haha.. Yes, this is my Cell mates, it has been some time most of us come together, due to their schedules, but still not all turn up otherwise there will be more ppl.

Y wud i say coming to cell is more exciting den any other events? It is because the presence of the peace, the feeling of God’s presence.. N they’re simply the right ones for u to cry ur sorrows n troubles out n they’ll help u with a way out, not leaving u alone anywhere.. Its always beta then telling someone u think is ur good frd n give u more bad ideas to deal with it, or saying more things to make u more upset n in the end? CANT HELP OUT IN ANYWAY? wasting time lor.

I’m so happy to be part of the body of Christ, coz I’ve found the reason for living n a closest relation any man might experience Well, my life has a drastic change n I’m so glad it happen for a good reason. They r simply Angels..

Pris my cell mate oso a young mum like me, den took out a deck of "Emotion Poker Card" its a magic trick la, which she’s gona do it on me coz I’m the bday gal There are 5cards only so i shouldn’t say its a deck, haha.. Anyway on each card there’s emotion like "Anger", "Happy", "Shock" ect ect coz i cant rmb! So, i choose a card, no ones knows… the remaining 4cards r called the "wishing well’… She said "Look at the emotion n think of a event tat made u feel this way, if its a good emotion i wan u to put it to the ‘well’ n rmb it, but if its a bad one put it to the ‘well’ n forget it"

Aft putting my card to the "well", Shuffles, I’m suppose to gave out the cards to desire person i wanna gave n Pris will know who’s holding on to the emotion i felt… And she did, Of coz k, she’s a Magician… She goes all ard the world to do magic shows "The magic of love" to touch ppl’s life n lead ppl to know god…

The card i choose was "Anger" n it was not long i had this feeling, its jus a day before my bday… God really speak to u in all kinds of way… I was still telling God how unhappy n injustice i felt, n by seeing the card He said "Forgive" by putting the card to the "well" means "Forget"… It might sound stupid to pre-believers but to those who has ardy know god, u’ll know how he comforts n come ard resolving ur strong heartaches or hard feelings u have.

I feel so much beta now, to really forgive n forget the incident is when, now or future u  mention abt that particular one or the incident, u wun feel hurt or upset… N i really did it again, its not easy k, so clap clap leh… haha… I think its really the best bday gift from god, coz hating or not forgiving someone is not good for urslf at all…

Everbody enjoyed the not to sweet dessert n a small but delicious small cake, a small cake is enuff for so many ladies coz everyone wans to "Jian Fei’ its been tested n proven all these years we waste cake if we buy a big one.. hehe, with cranberry tea! wow… so shiok!

After the celebrations ends, i cant wait to get home again, coz… I wonder wat did Darling prepare for me with the theme "Economical Surprises" haha… He Din join me n my family to swensens coz he wans prepare a small surprise for me, given so little time i wonder wat he’s up to… Haiz! all because his job la, so hectic! Sianz…

Celebrating with my Dearie

This year, is so different from last year… Last year he gave me a very Luxury one, told my frds wat he did all of them so envy.. haha.. but nothing to envy la, i oso do envy others at time oso, Last year was Fullerton Hotel, Louis Vuitton, Shopping, Lounge, full planed activity day n more to say.. but I told him i dun wish to splurge this year on my Bday coz i hope i can go overseas to shopping this year end if all situations allows, coz now his money is my money! haha… u see the difference between bf n hubby ba… He actually still book Ritz Carlton Millenia Singapore, luckily tat cant be a surprise coz i keep emphasizing "dun nid to splurge!" but lookin at the slides of the room he book is so so so tempting lor! still i stood firmed..

To my surprise, hahaha… so funny! "Ladies n Gentleman we present the Birthday princess" He came out with a clown nose! I got a cute Tiara n a Wand some more lor… He actually wanna put the clown nose, but i wun stay… Haha, i laughed endlessly!! The combination of the clothes I’m wearing n the Tiara, wand went pretty perfectly ya? haha… tats a good one man like a mini cosplay? i nv try this before…

Then it comes to my bday cake!!! Guess wat? its my all time fav, Fullerton hotel chocolate cake!!! I tell u… This is the best lor!! Never try before should try… Dunno u guys will like it or not but its very nice for me, i dunno how to describe, jus so heavenly lor

I enjoy my whole day very much…
My happy 19th is not a unhappy one
Thank God

I jus realise i got so little testi lor! all my frds so many… i dun have! sobz..

Wei, if ur reading, WRITE ME ONE CAN? hehe…

I dun accept those forwards ones or photobucket ones… i wan words, words, words u know… i very troublesome i know, haha

i got so little to say abt ma?

All the testi says, im cute, pretty, fierce etc etc… n it repeats again n again… -_- can i hav some new one ma?

Finally finally… Phew!!!! At last lor, finishing deleting all those i dunno in frdster. haha, din even know y i add them that time, think i wanna make my frdster full ba.

Eh, count urslf lucky if i nv delete u hor! haha… but in any case u dun feel lucky u can oways delete me then…  Probably i might hav missed some ppl to be delete…

N if i accidentally delete u when we actually know each other, pls get me back ya…

Kaoz, im so tired of seein those pics, ppl who put cartoon instead of their own pic, coz i hav to click to see their other pics! Their ru san zhen mian mu, so waste time. N oso those write funny funny names, aiyo… luking at the pic like very familiar den got no name to comfirm! have to see who’s our common frds…

N oso realise alot call Alvin, Kelvin, Darren… haha, i doing frdster survive lor…

Anyway im happy that i finnally clear them le, so wateva i write in my profile now or blog only ppl who know me will know me beta n not wasting those ppl whom i dunno n myslf, our time…

it took me 5days…

I Dunno y… Dunno wats wrong with me… Feeling so much down… So easily get irritated… Haiz, feeling so sianz, dunno when den all my emotion will get over..

I always hav this kind of problem.. When im angry or upset, n ppl ask me "why?", I always dunno how to say.. must wait until i not angry, not upset den i can say… But normally ppl wun wait for me to be happy, they’ll normally get angry with me for showing mood swings… has anyone encounter tat?

Even my darling will do tat at times.. i guess im really that irritating when i’m feelin down. But u know wat? Take it o Leave it man… I cant be bothered to change, coz i’ve changed alot over years n i jus wanna be myslf…

I’m so tired of my life sometime when i’m down.. nothings motivates me even my adorable kids, haha… kinda serious rite? but it true. (-.-) Maybe certain part of my life lead me to this character i guess.. but i jus cant tell wat is it..

Hmmm… I’m so stressed… i dunno y also, i dun feel like eating, i cant slp well.. I jus wanna call up a gal frd n tat frd can hlp me to vent it out, i wanna cry but no tears! I oso cant find any close gal whom know my life to vent out too… Any psychiatrist ard?

I only got darling, but he’s a guy.. sometime guys jus dunno how to comfort gals, they dunno how to say things gals wanna hear. My dar will only say thing straight n truth n reasonable, like a military train kind. I find it hard to express myslf sometimes, so i dun lor… coz if i do i guess will end up quarreling..

I jus feel kinda… i think the word is "empty".

Pictures of my childhood n past keep coming back, n all that come back are negative ones.. I’m gg to breakdown soon.. jus feel that now life is a run way that i can nv run finish! so much thing to achieve n stressed abt, so much lies to fall into..

Last night i watched this 9pm show on ch8. A gal asked her suitor whom was aft her ever since childhood times till now they r grown ups "wat will u do if i kill a person if u love me so much?" That suitor replied dramatically "I find a best lawyer to hlp u etc.. etc.. let u be free" although its sounded not realistic the gal was happy n replied "wun u blame me for killing someone?" tat guy said "If u were to kill tat someone tat someone must has done something tat deserve to die! so den u wud kill him" the gal smiled even she dun even like that suitor at all..
the next day somehow she asked her own boyfrd the same question, the boyfrd replied "why must u kill tat person" she pissed, she jus wanna hear something plsing fm her own bf den someone Else’s…

Again to the point, good guys dun honeyed their words much.. tats wat i seen n believe… So am i jus over wanting someting or cud it be compromise? Haiz… I jus wish someone can make me smile now..

I feel so blue… God i cant feel u any near now..

Happy new year to all..!! its CNY, time for visiting n collecting Ang Bao la! haha.. I’ve been quited busy.. Coz Feb is a super busy month…

14th Feb- valentine
16th Feb- last min CNY grocery
17th Feb- Lunar Dinner Marathon
19th Feb- anniversary
22th Feb- Darling’s Bday…

Phew.. every years gonna be like tat lor.. behind all is alot of work ,effort n plans.. For valentine, din really splurge outside coz i believe everyday is valentine if we really love each other, no point treatin each other extra good on tat particular day V’day is jus a commercial act for market to earn.. haha, talkin more like darling..

I jus bought two Jeans covered Bible for him n myslf went with Amelia.. so cool.. haha.. i din wait for the actual Vday to come den give him the present, we exchange present at a very hot afternoon aft we came back from a long walk! haha.. so no romantic n tiring moment rite? well, even if its so, i realize this the only valentine i celebrate w/o leaving my hse n splurging outside leh.. 1st time.. haha.. im ardy happy with it coz its him i celebrate with.. So on the day itslf i tot n said to him "Eh, today vday leh! we like got no activities to do LOL~" but… to my surprise…

The day before vday, he came back home early.. so early to surprise me.. i was happy coz i find tat day super bored! N during lunch outside purposely wanna know whether he got prepare anything for tml’s vday? coz he always keep surprises away fm me very well.. i dunno whats under his sleeves… haha.. So i say "Haiz, tml vday u still gota work.. den i think i go celebrate with Amelia ba.. coz she single, den as a frd i should acc her. n we used to celebrate together oso.." den he gave me a stone face with jaws slightly open… "i off tml leh" hahahhaha… caught him!

"So was the plan???" i exclaimed!
"Foot reflexology" he said… (its my favorite )
So i tot that my vday n was happy..

Next day arrived n both we on Vday day wear until so relax go raffles places.. while other ppl wear so formal n pretty tat day to go dating.. haha, so funny feeling but i was really feeling very comfy with wat i wear, i sleeveless n shorts wit slippers hee

The foot reflexology was great.. Pain but Shiok~ I like it.. haha.. Den we went to "Curry Favor" for Lunch.. the food there not bad! Jap curry.. yami! wat a special Vday..

Den in the nite when i was abt to finish bathing. Drying myslf when someone come in with champaign, strawberries, chocolate.. Hahaha.. he really caught me in surprise..

A foamy bathtub, chill music, champaign, strawberries, chocolate..Haha.. my Vday at least got something romantic..

N now.. waiting for his Bday to come.. few more days..

From Jss!!!! I hate it when ppl don’t know abt me n gossip behind my back.. Tat sux.. I mean anyone should beware of what u say, coz u might have set a wrong image to the person ur tokin abt n it means a lot if u look in an opposite way.. Ya? All these r childish but it can be still quite hurting.

http://profile.imeem.com/XxaE5L/music/QqMDexpR/04_rumors_lindsay_lohan/

I jus got to found out tat my ex sch is spreading some rumour abt my pregnancy.. I happily announce it bcz I want to share the joy I finally waited for but to them it’s an accident. It doesn’t really matter how those silly gals who started this rumours. If its really an incident or something shameful abt, I wun even tell my sch frds coz I might as well jus abort it.. When I say it I mean sharing happy news. Moreover we’re not so close.. So y must I say something to make myself pai sae? N why must I say something uncertain for u guys to talk abt? But I was wondering those who is closer to me in sch, hav they help me clarify or join in the rumour n make it more BIG CASE.. Im really curious abt this. Coz no body told me this before n its has been so long.. Den I found out..

Cant blame, coz I dun really hav good buddies n gal frds at sch.. But those tat r still close to me now. Those tat say tat they care.. Wat will they do if they heard my name being criticise? If they not helping me to say it clear when they still contact me now, knows my story, den I should really consider not to contact those so called frds..

I agree the mouth who spread or is still spreading is not mine, so I cant control.. *if I can u’ll get to see how I stich it up! Den add salt haha ~Evil~..” * So all I wana say is if u haven really heard from me, my story, nor seen wat happen wit ur own eyes.. Pls jus shut up..

Now tat I know there’s such rumours, I’ll take it.. At least I’m aware.. J “sticks n stones can break my bones but not words” I’m happy tat I’m not kept away from this rumours anymore.. Want to thank Xin Zhi, for telling me what he heard.. He’s not even from my sch!!!! Can u see how far this thingy goes? Good things nobody say bad thing spread so fast.. Wat my ahma says is so true ya.. Haha..!

I’m sure everyone will hav such experience before la.. But its jus aft sayin out u’ll feel much relief.. Wow.. Jus now when I jus hung up the phone with Xin Zhi my blood is like boiling lor.. Sayin something so mean to me when din even tok rot abt them before.. Xin Zhi took some courage to help me clarify, courage because he’s a very shy guy haha.. He told tat gal from his class, which is from my sch.. But this wat she replied: “Why believe u when the whole sch is sayin otherwise?“ u say will hot anot?? Whole sch?? I dun even hav 10 frds!! All r jus hi-bye-ers. Thanks for telling me.. I appreciate tat.. Thank u Xin Zhi, for bein so trueful to me, he was afraid I might get angry aft hearing wat he’s suppose to tell me, but luckily he’s still frank to me, otherwise I dun even know when I’ll know abt tis.

By the way if someone is curious, I know Xin Zhi long enuff.. N He knows me beta den ppl frm my sec sch.. I dun hav true frds in my sec sch anyway..

For those ppl how’s still sayin as a word for mouth is they happen to tok abt me.. I cant stop, but the innocent will still be the innocent no matter how much more u guys say one day when this happens to you guys then u’ll understand how much unfairness u feel, the feeling of being framed for nothing.. So if u think u know beta what I went thru den me myself n I, den talk freely n loudly ba! Coz it not harming me at all.. But u feel its not rite, thanks.. Jus keep quiet den.. All these are jus rumours if continue, by keeping quiet its jus helping urslf to not utter something fake u heard from whoever.. If u really wanna know what happen, ask the right person n not hearin from wrong parties.. Ask me ma! I’ll tell u personally, if u dun dare to ask, why dare to say? Ask n I’ll tell u den.

N I’m not working a $4.50/hr job at Holland Village!!!! For goodness sake! Who is ur friend tat tell u abt this? Does tat bloody person know me well in the 1st place!!! I’m a freelancer in modelling… $4.50 eat shit ar???

Aiyo!!!! Y all the info so wrong de… ask those who r closer to me, n not some funny creatures!!!

You wan juice go get some peel fresh?? Haaha.. Just Joking.. Not trying to be offensive..

Lastly, I dun hav to announce in the news to get myself cleared k.. I’m jus venting my unhappiness here.. Aft I finish writing, it will come to an end for me. As for those fake rumours spread further, each of them who spread are jus accumulating more points in sins lor.. I’m perfectly fine with it..

“Sticks n Stones can break my bones… but not WORDS”– I’ve learn this over years.

http://profile.imeem.com/XxaE5L/music/QqMDexpR/04_rumors_lindsay_lohan/

[BRIDGE:]
Why can’t you just let me
Do the things I wanna do
I just wanna be me
I don’t understand why
Would you wanna bring me down
I’m only having fun
I’m gonna live my life
Like I wanna do

[CHORUS:]
I’m tired of rumors starting
I’m sick of being followed
I’m tired of people lying
Saying what they want about me
Why can’t they back up off me
Why can’t they let me live
I’m gonna do it my way
Take this for just what it is

Keeping a family close together is so difficult.. Can anyone tell me how? I’m quite lost.. As kids, bf n i are now stayin together with my bf’s family, i jus hope everyone will stand up like a family.

Even at home, sometimes it dun feel like a home. Yes comparing before, when we r staying at terrace hse its much closer, coz this condo is smaller, will get to see each other more! if this is the reason why we see each other more, thats so bad!  even so, everyone is jus doin their own stuff, everyone is living so self minded.

But im a human not a god, my Love Level will drop if they dun show appreciate. so everyday, i pray god will fill up my love for them.. "love even ur enemies, so y not them?" ya..